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I do this a lot, but I think I'm gonna try it again by writing this.
You know when you feel absolutely horrible mentally, you can't seem to get anything done? I've felt like that a ton lately, what with my family situation, with the Unity mess and with my job, on top of other mental health struggles. Things are just stacking up. I haven't cleaned in weeks, I haven't vacuumed the apartment in even longer. I'm gaining weight and some days I don't get off the couch. I've applied for some courses, that's about it.
So yeah, I'm going to make some kind of arbitrary promise here by writing that next week, I'm going to try - again - to change things. Clean the apartment, exercise, eat healthier. Every time I try to do this at the start of a week, I fail, I always fail. But maybe writing it out in text might help.
Just saw you self-requested a few week ban, but I just wanted to say that the little things add up, and I know the feeling of getting trapped and feeling like nothing is happening or improving too well. But: Managing to eat a little healthier one day, doing one small bit of cleaning, accomplishing one small task of some sort, going for a small walk, etc. - all of those things really start to add up and help if you just do one here and there. Some days doing much of anything is a huge struggle, but others you might feel a bit more up to it, so just doing what you can and pushing yourself a little bit here and there goes a long way. I've been there, but you can slowly work your way to a better spot, and whatever you think or whatever you do each day, you're NOT a failure.Oh yeah. This.
I'm not saying "nothing happened", because I have been eating some bananas and have been taking some walks, but I still feel like such an immense, walking failure.
Just wanna scream into the void.
I can relate to the focus struggles, and it's no joke when it starts affecting your performance and even the things you enjoy, like gaming or CrossFit. It can be really frustrating. But, hey, you're not alone in this journey, and that's a powerful thing to remember.Glad this thread is here, solidarity is important, I just started seeing a psychiatrist in hopes of getting something that could make my adhd less intrusive to my quality of work and life. I have a very hard time focusing, which leads to poor performance at work, and way increased anxiety on my end. I can’t even focus on activities I enjoy like gaming or cross fit. I haven’t been prescribed anything yet, but I feel hipeful for the first time in my entire life that there is a light at the end of this road. Never be afraid to seek help, we are valid and our concerns are valid, even if your inner voice is telling you that no one cares.
God I am so scared right now. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like crying. My physical condition is getting worse and worse. My health care won't pay for it because it's not bad enough yet. I thought I was making improvements, nothing perfect or anywhere near where it needed to be but I didn't think it got this bad. I feel so defeated that I made all these changes and they still weren't good enough. I guess I will die young like my parents did. Damn it, I don't want to die yet. I had so many plans. So much I wanted to see. I feel like I don't have much time left.
Thank you. I'm okay emotionally now. Physically I feel like shit and trying to get through these last two hours of my shift.I am so sorry that you're going through this, if you ever want to talk I am here
Stop looking at your phone. It won’t make a text message appear sooner. Keep your mind otherwise occupied on literally anything else such as:Does anyone have any advice on how to stop worrying about getting a response when you text someone?
It's hard but you do have to keep thinking logically. Emotions are inferior and less true than logical reasoning, don't ever forget that.It’s been too many days now where I stand on the train platform with snow whirling in my face and I feel so alone. Like I’m adrift at sea.
It feels so empty, like I have no friends. And I hate feeling like that because I have friends. A few, but they’re an awesome few. Yet, sometimes, getting an encouraging text or call sort of goes into one ear and out the other.
Sometimes, it feels like me feeling like this is doing a disservice to the friends I have, as if they’re insufficient. Which they’re not.
I guess sometimes, dark and depressing feelings defies logic.
And I hate that.
I've dealt with similar issues in the past. It's really easy, at least for me, to fall into both upward and downward emotional spirals. You just have to remain logical and remember there's always going to ups and downs, and you can't let either side (be it something good or bad) pull you 100% in that direction. You can't allow yourself to fall victim to all-or-nothing thinking, you don't need to "correct" back from the bad to the good road, you just need to continue down your road.Y’all ever have like… one issue and it completely ruins all your momentum?? I was doing really well for a while, but after hitting a bump in the road it completely threw me off and I’m having trouble correcting back to where I was. I find myself reverting back to all my old bad habits. I guess I’ll just keep going steady ‘til I get back there and stay vigilant with how I am feeling, but man… it’s frustrating.
That helps a lot, actually! I definitely struggle with seeing it as a “failing”, but you’re right that it’s part of the path and being comfortable and aware of where I am is much more important than if it’s “good” or “bad”. I appreciate the advice!!I've dealt with similar issues in the past. It's really easy, at least for me, to fall into both upward and downward emotional spirals. You just have to remain logical and remember there's always going to ups and downs, and you can't let either side (be it something good or bad) pull you 100% in that direction. You can't allow yourself to fall victim to all-or-nothing thinking, you don't need to "correct" back from the bad to the good road, you just need to continue down your road.
Sorry if that's not the most helpful. but that's what I try to remember when I'm having a difficult time.
I know it's cleche but take it one day at a time. Find a happy place. Something that takes your mind away. For me it's working out. You got this.Y’all ever have like… one issue and it completely ruins all your momentum?? I was doing really well for a while, but after hitting a bump in the road it completely threw me off and I’m having trouble correcting back to where I was. I find myself reverting back to all my old bad habits. I guess I’ll just keep going steady ‘til I get back there and stay vigilant with how I am feeling, but man… it’s frustrating.
For anyone looking for additional information on mental health and well-being, I recommend speaking with a professional. It's a fantastic opportunity that can provide further insights and guidance.Thank you for creating this mental health community thread. It's essential to have a safe space where we can discuss and support each other, especially during challenging times. The resources you've shared, including the suicide hotline numbers and links to various services, are incredibly valuable.
I work, I feel miserable
I play games to escape misery, I feel miserable
I go on social media to blow off steam from that misery, I feel miserable
Don't wanna tell people close to me, cause I don't wanna make my misery make them miserable
Other than that I think i'm just unlikable cause i'm more often than not in a bad place mental health wise.
Thanks for your reply.Hey man!
Have you been diagnosed? Are you on meds?
Remember depression is a chemical imbalance in your brain. You need to address it as the illness it is, or it won't go away on it's own. As much as it feels like these are your genuine feelings and you're just a miserable person, that's a trap, you are not like that. You will be able to feel happiness and function normally again if you stick with a treatment that works for you.
I'm talking as someone who finally got my depression under control after 5 years, and life is great now. I am now being reintroduced to the person I am, and had forgotten because I was replaced with my depressed version. I am a happy, easy going, funny, pleasant to be around person normally, but the illness took that person away and now I've reclaimed myself. You can do it too, even if it takes a while. Please don't lose hope and don't give up!
Thanks for your reply.
I think I have been depressed in some form or another for a while now. I do have therapy but the thing is that I feel great for a while and then every few months I just get into this deep deep pit and the last few years its been getting worse. The long waiting times for psychologists here also isn't great.