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Background: I was a long time vaper (Quit in 2020! Yay) Then a medium term user of Nicotine Gum and Patches (Quit in 2021! Yay). I don't have alcohol every week and no other drug addictions. Well......
I've got a final daily addiction to kill; caffeine. I have two caffeine pills a day, totaling roughly 2.5 cups of coffee worth of the stuff. (400mg of caffeine). I don't drink coffee, rarely drink tea, enjoy a few diet sodas and go hard on drink mixes (like lemonade) and seltzers, so caffeine pills are nearly my only source of caffeine. No fun flavors, coffee culture or anything surrounding my use, its cold and clinical. It reminds me that I'm dependent on a psychoactive drug every day. Not fun. So how did I get here, ready to quit?
History of usage; I got myself into a huge caffeine addiction by mid 20s,(1g a day of the stuff before I calmed it down lol) tried to quit without success at least 6 times, been a caffeine pill user since 2015. I'm 34 now and ready to feel free again.
How I'm doing it; because I don't have a daily ritual surrounding a warm drink/coffee (not even in the winter) cutting caffeine pills in half and quarter doses was an easy way to go. I went from 400mg to 200mg, from 200mg to 100mg 7 days later, to 75mg the following seven days and I'm on my first day of 50mg only. (Roughly the same as a can of diet coke).
How it has gone so far; because of the taper I haven't had horrific headaches or periods where I couldn't function, however, I have experienced disrupted sleep (which is unexpected, as cutting caffeine down to 100mg resulted in BETTER sleep), which was also a major part of nicotine withdrawal. By next monday, I expect to be over the acute part of caffeine withdrawal. Then follows the work of making sure to savor caffeine on rare occasions, which I've failed at in the past. However my success with nicotine has armed me with confidence that I've got this. I'm young enough to change, old enough to know how to do it right.
What I hope to get from this; During my previous quits, I had days and weeks where I woke up feeling like I had my caffeine without needing any. I know what its like to be free of it and I want that back. No afternoon crash that I fight off by chewing a caffeine pill by 1pm, no fuzzy and dragging state of being until I chew that first pill, nothing. Last Saturday I took a nap, successfully, for probably the 3rd time in 4 years. I miss napping. Nicotine and caffeine destroyed my ability to nap and I want it fucking back damn it.
So AMA.
I've got a final daily addiction to kill; caffeine. I have two caffeine pills a day, totaling roughly 2.5 cups of coffee worth of the stuff. (400mg of caffeine). I don't drink coffee, rarely drink tea, enjoy a few diet sodas and go hard on drink mixes (like lemonade) and seltzers, so caffeine pills are nearly my only source of caffeine. No fun flavors, coffee culture or anything surrounding my use, its cold and clinical. It reminds me that I'm dependent on a psychoactive drug every day. Not fun. So how did I get here, ready to quit?
History of usage; I got myself into a huge caffeine addiction by mid 20s,(1g a day of the stuff before I calmed it down lol) tried to quit without success at least 6 times, been a caffeine pill user since 2015. I'm 34 now and ready to feel free again.
How I'm doing it; because I don't have a daily ritual surrounding a warm drink/coffee (not even in the winter) cutting caffeine pills in half and quarter doses was an easy way to go. I went from 400mg to 200mg, from 200mg to 100mg 7 days later, to 75mg the following seven days and I'm on my first day of 50mg only. (Roughly the same as a can of diet coke).
How it has gone so far; because of the taper I haven't had horrific headaches or periods where I couldn't function, however, I have experienced disrupted sleep (which is unexpected, as cutting caffeine down to 100mg resulted in BETTER sleep), which was also a major part of nicotine withdrawal. By next monday, I expect to be over the acute part of caffeine withdrawal. Then follows the work of making sure to savor caffeine on rare occasions, which I've failed at in the past. However my success with nicotine has armed me with confidence that I've got this. I'm young enough to change, old enough to know how to do it right.
What I hope to get from this; During my previous quits, I had days and weeks where I woke up feeling like I had my caffeine without needing any. I know what its like to be free of it and I want that back. No afternoon crash that I fight off by chewing a caffeine pill by 1pm, no fuzzy and dragging state of being until I chew that first pill, nothing. Last Saturday I took a nap, successfully, for probably the 3rd time in 4 years. I miss napping. Nicotine and caffeine destroyed my ability to nap and I want it fucking back damn it.
So AMA.